Easter Sunday

It is Easter Sunday. The day we celebrate the culmination of the Christmas Story, for He had to be born in order to die. I so enjoyed the speaker at Lifechurch today, a former mobster who is a powerful example of the redemptive power of God’s love in a life fully surrendered. And then I think, “Am I fully surrendered?” With all that I have done wrong and all the mistakes I have made, God still loves me. He never turns His back on me. Yet I continue to hold back, even just a little and sometimes a lot. Why do I not let Him have it all? He wants it. He wants me to surrender and follow Him. He wants me to step back and allow Him to step up. I am so stubborn and pig headed. When will I stop trying to second guess God and do His job? When will I simply let go? I have lost it all, in a worldly sense. I have had no home for my family. I have been unable to pay bills, yet He provided. He has proven Himself to me over and over. It is time – time to sit down and shut up. Time to let Him lead me. Time to go where He wants me to go instead of where I want to go. Here I am Lord. Here I am.